Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Lesson in life
It seems as though more and more stress starts to accumulate and build up. Feeling pretty tired these days too. I wouldn’t say that studying isn’t fun. on the contrary, I think that studying has its own unique kind of pleasure and enjoyment. Many a times, the sense of satisfaction really makes me forget all the agony experienced during the process.
I was pretty disgusted these few days. If people only go to school to study and learn all the academic materials, obsessed with results only, then school holds no true meaning to it. To me, I think our education policy should also include the component when it teaches students certain basic and fundamental lessons in life. It was really a pretty awful sight as I witness people around showing their insensitivity without any second thoughts. Did they think that it is right to do such a thing?
Don’t cross the limit.
That would be a pretty useful and important advice to many of our fellow teenagers in the country. Regardless of however close people can be, I think the minimum sensitivity towards each other should never be neglected. Even in a top school like NYGH, I still see girls all silly and doing things that don’t reflect intelligence. I know they may not mean it, but verbal insults can actually hurt a lot more than physical attacks. And it exposes the true mentality of each individual. Not everything is shown in the results, in the ‘O’ levels results or your degree in the future. If you don’t have basic social skills, it is about time we start reflecting and think about what have we really done for the past sixteen years. Has they all gone down the drain?
Sometimes, I really wonder how far I would go in the future. I know how much importance I place in following certain principles. I always am proud of my achievements, but when I see the foolishness of some of the people around me, I ponder the true importance of being streetwise and sensitive. People with much poorer social skills and consideration for others seem to get almost as far as we do. Am I holding too tightly to things that are not regarded as important in this society? I don’t know. All I know is that the insensitivity and immature behaviour of people around me disgust and hurt me at times.
A loved one of mine used to keep strong faith in the belief that the more you can tolerate, the more you live your life with benevolence, the more merits and true achievements you will obtain. But is it really true? In school, there are people who I don’t like very much but yet respect them in certain areas. She isn’t someone I like very much, but I am impressed by her tolerance level. No matter how others treat her, she still manages to keep her happy front on. It may be a superficial cover, but the ability to even do that amazes me. I can’t. although I can control my temper much better these years, I doubt I can ever be so kind and forgiving in the near future. This brings me back to the belief that my loved one once held so tightly to. If being kind and tolerant of others is really a good thing, why do people who practise it never get to benefit any more than others and instead continue to “suffer” in silence? Instead, it is often the “innocent” and ignorant who benefit as they live a sheltered life and never come into contact with the darkness of the society.
I wouldn’t say that I led a very sad or dark life. Neither am I exposed to the harsh storms in life. I only managed to witness a fraction of the ugliness in life. It’s so unfair. Some people will probably live their whole life in the same ignorance they experience now, safely protected from everything outside their warm houses. Some people will continue to struggle against the ordeals and obstacles in life, as if fighting a never-ending war against something that never seems to go their way. Why?
The only way to motivate these people, and myself, is to know in our hearts that the toughest challenges always go to the most capable.
If you are feeling really lost about what exactly am I talking about, maybe it’s time you start thinking. If you understand what I am saying, congrats! I think we are all a step further in our lifelong learning journey. And if you are feeling sore or disgusted with the honesty of the entry, it’s time you reflect.
Sorry if the entry looks depressing or demoralizing. I harbour no such intention. All I want is to get rid of all the thoughts that are always in my mind.
*zu shi en dian..*
A Xinwei rainbow appeared at 6:46 PM***
